What should I say

It`s strange ... very fucking strange with all this things happens in the life. I thought it will be easier but are so many surprises and a lot of dreams who make me see you back in my arms, standing near by me and looking in your eyes ... and see that I love you ... and you love me. Strange mood ... feelings that express much more than words can say, and feeling who wanna come out from my bleeding soul. What should I do ... this it`s my question ... for what should I do ... I would like to have a reason for everything, every outcome has a reason, but which it`is my reason? It`s you ... me  ... the fact that I love you? I wish we could stay together unde the same sun again and dream about our life. I don`t have to many words ... it`s complicated to find and to express your feelings. I want everything to be perfect in all areas, but when it`s about you ... I lose myself ... can't find anything appropriate to say. It`s so hard ... but I will ... and I`m sure that I will do`it right ... but for the moment I try to find myself ... or better say to find ourselves.